The closer it gets the more heartbroken I feel that it isn’t right this second.
and suddenly it will happen,
when you don’t even realize it-
you’ll be the person you’ve
always wanted to become.
you will have the life you’ve
always wanted to live
and the friends to help guide
you along the way.
you will have the lover who
promises you the world
(and for once actually gives…
THIS IS MY FAVORITE THING IN THE WORLD
All I want right now is a phone call about nothing with someone I love. A pointless conversation that isn’t really pointless because all you actually want to do is be near them. And if I’m being truthful, I don’t want the conversation to be pointless at all. I want to have a truly deep honest conversation about thoughts and feelings and wishes and aspirations and fears. Because right now I love my friends and I love my family, but I feel like if you don’t have a conversation like this every now and again with someone then you can’t truly know them. So I feel like they don’t really know me. Then again, do I really know me?
Isn’t it weird how people change and grow apart and stop talking and then one day you see this person who you swore you were going to be friends with forever and you can barely think of a thing to say and then it finally hits you that somewhere along the way your friendship dimmed and you will probably never be close to that person again. I think that’s one of the saddest things I’ve come to terms with lately.